Dreams of Happiness

I am a 24 year old, unwed, young professional. My life has become one based on what I want to project to the world. Dreams and goals have been pushed aside and I have started to wonder what this means for my future.

Freshmen year of college I changed my major from elementary education to interior design. The idea of sitting in a classroom all day with 25 kids suddenly seemed like a Midwestern occupation. The idea of being a big city interior designer who glammed up spaces was much more appealing to me. I am extremely happy with this decision.

However, sometime between this decision and graduation I was drawn off the path. The big city idea was overrun when I was offered a job at a design firm in my hometown. This seemed perfect since my whole family was here and I was suddenly eager to make this little piece of Earth better designed. The decision to stay in my hometown was provoked even more by my boyfriend, whose family and job are also here.

These decisions have led me to where I am now: living in my hometown, working at a job that I love but where there is no room for growth within the company, with my afraid-of-commitment-boyfriend, and wondering if I will ever see those dreams that I had six years ago. I am happy now with life but I still think about those dreams.

I do still want to make it to a big city and have a job where I work with high-profile clients and cater to their every design need. Often times I wonder if I will make it there. Will it forever remain a dream? Will it make me happier than I am now? These are questions that will never be answered unless I make a decision. And when I decide will it feel pressured or like I am settling? I want to make the most of this life and I want every decision to be educated but I also want to be spontaneous.

Life, I have learned, can be funny and I know that everything will work out as it should; until then I will keep daydreaming, thinking, praying, and enjoying what I have.

x’s and o’s

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Working On the Apartment

Let's just start by saying we all make mistakes. Was it a mistake for Emily and me to move into an apartment together? NO! Was it a mistake for us to move into THIS apartment? Possibly.

The question of common sense and how others use common sense has arisen often when it comes to the landlord and maintenance staff. I am determined to keep them on task and fix our issues so that the rest of our lease can go smoothly. For example, we moved in at the first of June and now, at the middle of August, my toilet has been fixed, or so they say, four times. I finally convinced them to take the toilet out and do a better investigation. They eventually followed through; low and behold they found an eye shadow compact. Of course they tried to blame that on me but that is another story. I now have a new toilet that works perfectly. Now if I could just get them to fix the other three problems, we would be set. I will let you know when that happens.

I have been working diligently on making the apartment look greater than it is in reality. Whimsical design is what I love for my own space and I have been using samples of materials to make fun art for the apartment. It takes time but maybe by the time the lease is over, I will finally have it the way I want it. Oh well.

Teaser of materials art.

until next time :)
x's and o's

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Carter is Here!!!

Carter Jay Richards

born August 5, 2010 at 7:24 pm

I'm an aunt!

until next time... x's and o's!

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Wake up in the mornin...

Do you ever have days when you wake up and realize that you may not be living your life the way you should? I had that wake up call this morning when the first thing I did was complain about the humidity and heat. Starting off the day complaining is probably not the right thing to do. Shouldn't I be thankful that I made it through the night okay? That no one I know was hurt during the thunderstorm last night. Kyle made it home from work just fine. My sister, who is having a baby on Thursday (!!!!), is perfectly healthy as is Baby Carter. My apartment was still standing and my toilet still working (MIRACLE). My car drove me to work quickly and safely. I have a job to go to! And this morning I am enjoying a delightful, free blueberry muffin with my Italian blend coffee.

I am going to start thinking more about things for which I am thankful. Every time I complain about something, I will counteract that with three things that are great about my life.

I saw this quote on Twitter today and it reaffirmed my same thoughts. "Today has the potential to be great. What will you make of it?" If I could just think about that every morning, and strive to make each day great in it's own way, it would be a live changing experience.

x's and o's
Courtney

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Fruit detox; yes, again

A while back I wrote about a fruit detox I had heard about and wanted to try. I stocked up on fresh fruit, raw nuts, and seeds. Then I spent three days weening myself off my normal foods until I was completely switched over to the fruit detox. And then it lasted only three days. :( Sadface. It was completely my fault because I just didn't follow through with the commitment. What got me the first time and what turned me away from trying again was the social downtime it requires. I am a pretty social person and let's be honest, there isn't much to do in Muncie but eat. And even if I was ordering a healthy salad, it still doesn't fit the detox rules.

I am determined to try again though. Since Kyle now works evenings, I am completely making my own dinner choices. Sundays will be the hardest because of after-church dinner, but I'm still going to try. It is only a two or three week detox anyway.

Unfortunately, I have already planned and made my lunch and dinner this week. So I will have to wait for Friday. I will definitely be posting my progress.

x's and o's,
Courtney

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